mungkin yang terbaik :)

tadi ade pbl (problem based learnning) and dr.akram, my facilitator was sit not so far from me and he observed all of us thoroughly..at the end of the session i was called by him, cuak gila ! wuarghhh! he told everyone to move out first and he wanted to talk to me personally, lagi la x senang duduk kan...wuarghhhh menjerit tanpa bunyi lagi, then he told me,

 farrah, u are to quiet in the discussion, be part of it, dun afraid to tell them something that u know, dont be so hesitate whether it is right or wrong, ok farrah, i want you to develop urself, ok, next time, dont just be too quiet..

at first da agak memang die nak tegur aku something pun, and aku yang mula2 cuak tadi, try to be cool in front of him, but honestly sebenarnya, rasa nak nangis sebab teguran die. Even he spoke to me softly, but still i think i did my best in the discussion and my heart is like breaking down into pieces..mungkin aku jenis yang susah nak terima teguran orang lain over the things that i think i already put my best into it.

   tapi bila difikirkan semula, mungkin itu yang terbaik, it is good to have someone that can correct me when im wrong so that i will not going away from the right path/way kan, means that, i will take those advice as a compliment for me to be much much better in the future, lebih baik this things happen now, as aku boleh tundukkan sedikit ego dalam diri yang sebenarnya, we are not perfect, and kita ni kadang2 bukannya bagus sangat pun in certain things, poyo je lebih ! hahaha like me ?! and aku terfikir, ni baru jadi medic student, mungkin ini hanyalah cebisan kalau nak compare dengan apa yang kita akan lalui during HO and as a doctor which is lagi banyak kita kena tegur directly in front of our colleague and also in front of the patient. sepahit mana pun, kena telan juga bukan ?

and thanks to dr. asfaq akram for making me realize about how to improve myself.